you're the only thing that makes sense, just ignore this present tense.

i really wish i couldn't relate to this so much ..

never thought not having you here now would hurt so much.

i'm afraid to tell you,
afraid you'll let me fall
like you once did, years ago.
i miss you, you know?
every single day.
i bet you never knew,
but i do.

you're not alone, i'll be right beside you forevermore.

i'm so afraid for you. i wish so badly i could help you

but that's not my job, that's hers.

you won't understand anyway.

i'm wondering
whether my thoughts are unclear and i'm trying to make sense of them
or if they make perfect sense and i'm trying to blur them.
either way, you won't understand.

never thought i'd be the one to bring you down.

you're standing where i once did ; on the outside.
isn't it hell?
seeing me happy without you.
malice is running free
and i should stop it
but i don't want to.
you'll finally know how it feels.

fire burning.

your name scorches my veins,
and boils in my blood.
i'll bet you never knew.
you never will,
but you deserve to.

this time baby, i'll be bulletproof.

is it cold out,
standing with the trash i threw out this morning?
you're solid as a rock,
but i can see right through you
and into the clear, night air behind you.
what a shame, you once had me.
never again.